9w5d

It was exactly at 9 weeks and 5 days that we found out our first baby had died. Oct 3, 2007... was the worst day of my life. I am officially 9 weeks and 5 days today. I'm hoping to make it through the appointment tomorrow and we see our baby's heartbeat going strong. These weekly waits are intolerable.

He was wrong

One dead baby. One live baby doing well. Both babies measured at about 8 weeks but only one heartbeat. I had wished prayed that I was wrong... this time, I hate being right.

Third sono and scared to death

The first sono went well two weeks ago when we saw one strong heartbeat, and then last week we saw two heartbeats! I felt the whole week that we would see two, but I was afraid to acknowledge it at all. When I was right, I was over the moon. This week, I feel as if we've lost one, and I'm afraid to admit that too. I desperately want both babies but I can't shake this feeling. MTB, on the other hand, is convinced that both babies are fine and growing strong. We'll see - third sono tomorrow at 9:30.

I hope like hell he's right.