Follie check #3

Today's sono showed about 8 follies between 11-13mm on the right and about 7 on the left about the same size. E2 is 357, and RE is okay with the numbers. Meds go back to 3 Bravelle in the morning and 2 Bravele + 1 Menopur in the evening and Lupron stays at 2.5 units per day. Looks like retrieval is still planned (more or less) for Thursday. Fun times.

Follie check #2

Doesn't sound good to me, but the nurse is staying positive. E2 was only 106 and I have about 8 good size follies and few smaller ones growing. No change in the meds. I wish this were easier.

Last night as MTB and I talked, I mentioned the idea that this might not work and that ARB might end up an only child. That made me cry, but at the same time, I wanted to talk about the fact that she's getting a little older so maybe it will be easier to travel and show her the world. MTB wasn't interested in hearing any of it. It wasn't the plan, but she may just grow up all alone. I don't think either of us want to deal with that possibility.

Follie check #1

I went in yesterday for the first follie check, and it looks like an okay crop growing in there with between 4 and 6 follies growing on each side. My E2 last Thursday was 15, so the nurse explained that an E2 in the 50's would be expected. It was 55. I hope we have at least a few good ones in there and a few others just to make me feel good. No change in my meds which include 3 Bravelle/Lupron AM and 2 Bravelle/1 Menopur PM in addition to Dexamethasone and prenatal vitamins. Another follie check tomorrow.

On another note, my blood pressure was sky high when I went in for the aspiration last Friday so I called my PCP for an appointment. Long story short - I'm back on Labetalol twice a day. It might help w the headaches as well. I'm hopeful.

I'm hopeful everything works this time around.

Is this right?

I'm taking Bravelle this time rather than Follistim. While Follistim has an easy, peasy pen, Bravelle has vials that I must mix using a Q cap. Whatever. Using the Q cap leaves a little of the fluid in each vial, and it drives me crazy thinking that I'm not getting a full dose. I think with this evening's injection, I'll being using the needle to draw up the fluid and just skip the Q cap altogether. Just grow, follies, grow!

Another day, another cycle

The cyst did not go away as hoped. It was still there at yesterday's sono. Although my estrogen was *only* 15, RE wanted to aspirate anyway since he didn't want anything to get in the way of the stims and my ovaries. MTB had planned to be out of town, only an hour away but out of town nonetheless, to call on a couple of practices. He's been pretty stressed since bringing on a new employee. Luckily for us, his parents were driving through town to attend a function in San Antonio, and they stayed the night last night. Mother-in-law stayed home w ARB and Father-in-law drove me to the hospital for the procedure. We arrived, I went under, woke up and headed home less than 3 hours later. Within the hour, they continued their journey and it was just me and ARB alone again.

This is really starting to get to me, and I wish this loneliness would just go away. For IVF#1, MTB was right there every single step of the way, but with each subsequent procedure, he becomes less and less involved. I know it's partly just a function of him being the sole bread winner and self-employed, but still, I am selfish and need him to be around to hold my hand. This sucks.

Oh yeah, yesterday was cycle day 1 and officially the beginning of our third IVF. I still wonder how in the hell I got here.

Stims start Sunday.

Waiting

I took my last birth control pill yesterday, so I'm just waiting for cycle day 1 to see if the cyst is gone. RE suggested that if it's not, he will aspirate before I start stims next Sunday. Who knows what that means. I have a sono on Wednesday to make sure it's gone.

Really?

Last week, a fellow infertile started a new blog anonymously, and the topic was the matter of another kid. She had twins a month before ARB was born, and while she was seriously thinking about having another, her DH was perhaps not so much. I let her in on my own dirty little secret about IVF#2 and the FET as I am currently craving some companionship throughout this journey. I get home today and find a post announcing her spontaneous pregnancy.

The universe is seriously fucking with me right now.

I am happy for her. Really. Very, very happy.

Really? All you had to do was have sex once and you got pregnant?

I am so tired of reading the stories of the January 2009 mommies who have no idea when the ovulated and they only had sex once a few weeks ago, but then they just didn't feel normal. So they took a home pregnancy test, and guess what? They are pregnant! Wow!

I'm sick of it. Really. Just keep your pathetic glass of wine and sex stories to yourself.